Are you man enough for me? Thursday, November 19, 2009
I trust you to be man enough about it. Thus I don't need your comments here when I'm just a call or a text away.
All I can say is that you're just trying to run away from your problems (that's why you went missing in action) and it's such a pity. It's very obvious that I'm not needed anymore as you didn't give me a reply to the last question I posed to you/ you went MIA and left me hanging by the rope all by myself and you let me go easily this time.
I wish you all the best in your life. I hope that you'll live with no regrets.
And remember this, "What goes around comes around".
Monday, November 16, 2009
Today marks the 5th day of his M-I-A. I have been feeling numb eversince - don't know whether to cry over it or be glad. I have lost my appetite to eat and have not been sleeping well either. Mum has been noticing that I'm a bit reserved and quieter now and she asks me every now and then if he did text or call me, which I know he will never bother.
My Buttsistaz were quite puzzled as to how well I handled my emotions this time round. I had no shoulder to cry on. In fact, I was all by myself. Nonetheless, I still have to thank my mum and close colleagues especially Jasmine, Kat and Shila for hearing my grievances and giving me their opinions and advices. I have to also thank Aman for trying to put me in Amin's shoes.
As for me, I would like to take this chance to move on. Insyaallah, I would meet my Mr Right a.k.a husband-to-be one fine day. I leave everything to Allah.
*Can't live without my girls*
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop
I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
The anger and frustration have been brewing and boiling inside me for the past few weeks and I guess I just could not take it any longer. It is not that I want to wash dirty linen in public but as a matter of fact, I have to let the bottled emotions out as a way to relieve myself.
This time, I really could not figure out how to solve the "actually-it's-a-small-problem-but-somehow-we-blew it-away". I'm at my wits end and do not know who specifically to turn my worries to. You have always been the one that I confide my problems to, the one to hear my whines and complaints and the one that I share my joy and sorrow with. Without you, I feel quite lost and lifeless.
It was a huge relief that last Saturday's session went on smoothly without any major hiccups and I was quite glad that dad gave the 'green light'. His main concern is just for you to take very good care of me. Well, have you and are you now?
I'm truly saddened over what has happened between us recently. From the answers you gave, I am doubtful of what is going to become of us in the future. I tried to propose a day for us (and was willing to leave my planned outing with my colleagues for a while) to discuss and solve the problem a.s.a.p but the answer that you gave kinda surprise (hmm, kinder surprise eggs anyone?) me. Now I know that your massage therapy and soccer matter a lot more than solving our own problem and I was indeed ridiculed - you suggesting to meet me after your soccer that ends at 11pm?!
I guess I have to re-think on what dad had said and hoped for you to take good care of me....
Re-think and re-think......
Thursday, November 5, 2009
So this is it. I have to drill it into my head and accept the fact that bestie has left. Stop brooding, Nur! Lift your arse up and move on! Bah!!
Ok, I can SO foresee myself updating my blog regularly, now that bestie's gone. I am like all 'alone' in the office at this very moment. Oh, it's lunch time actually. My best breast friend, Joyce, is on VL. My team has gone out to Fish & Co to celebrate the November babies' birthday. The rest have lunched out. The office seemed like a ghost town today. Boo-hooo!
Joyce & me with our customised 'nippled' cheeks photocards from Shila =p
Farewell dinner for bestie organised by myself, Kak Yati & Axl :)
Sedap? Free~ (Eh Azlan, I know this is your tagline ah. Pinjam eh? Haha!)
And sayang, 2 more days!!!! I just want you to know that I ♥ YOU till infinity & beyond, no matter what happens babyyyyyyyyy (yah, even though you really annoy and neglect me a lot recently :( )!!!
♥♥♥
~Hugs&Kisses@ 12:49 PM :)
Buttloads & Farewell Bestie (Part I) Monday, November 2, 2009
And so the Buttsistaz met up again last Friday at Terminal 3, Changi Airport, to celebrate both Kana's and Shasha's belated birthday. Dinner was at Popeyes and then we just hang around at the meeting point till it was time to go home.
Yang paling kecoh and got me into fits of laughter was our self-timered photo session. It was so lepak seh! Sofi's apparently the best one lor! She ketawa sampai terbaring on my leg! Geeez....... I really had truckloads of fun but darn, I wished we could spend a little bit more time with one another.
Next, a movie date ok girls? :)
I ♥ my ButtsistaZ
The wooden 'B = Buttsistaz' thingy which I made with the birthday messages to replace traditional birthday cards
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And if you hadn't guessed who the next colleague of mine to leave our organisation (despite the hints I gave away) is, just scroll further down and you will KNOW!!!
Yes, unbelievable kan? :(
The tiara I bought and the sash I made are specially for my bestie, Shila, who is leaving all of us tomorrow. *choke back a sob*
I shall continue more tomorrow or when I have the time. I have more to share on Shila's farewell..
Hey bestie, I hope that you enjoyed the gifts! I am also happy to hear the great news that you have shared to me just now. Heee...Can't wait for June next year!
♥Miss Farewell November♥
Norimah dropped by with her kids
Norimah's cute baby favours for all of us who made contributions on her delivery
There's another surprise waiting for my bestie tomorrow! Hehehe..... :))
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Well, 4 more days (excluding weekends) to go, bestie! Bet you are all geared up and feeling excited! :(
We had our belated & advance farewell dinner for Raymond and 'later-you'll-know-who' at Breeks, Ngee Ann City, last Friday. 2.5 hours with them with Joyce's funny antics, seemed so short! I wish time will never fly by so fast. Boo-hoo-hoo....
Well, how I super wish it will be my turn soon! If Joyce, my best "breast" friend were to leave, I'll be so "breast-less"! :'(
Aku dah tak sanggup lagi nak tunggu lama-lama....
*Group pic to end the dinner outing*
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Below are the pics of our HRS half day trip to Yakult Factory last Monday which was organized by our Welfare Committee. These are taken from Shila's FB (thanks Shila!). :)
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And someone has been stealing my attention lately. No, it's so NOT my boyfie! It's none other than this lil' 17 months old Filipino cutie, CJ!! He is the younger brother of my current tuition student, Carl Kent (C.K. for short). Geeee....CJ, you are one of the reasons as to why I am always looking forward to having tuition at your place! :) I am intending to take more pics of him! Hehe...
Ish!! Gerrrammmmm!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Oh gosh, I've been eating heaps of 'gOOd' food this week! Just 2 days ago, my colleagues and I had lunch at Swensen's after our ISO meeting at MND and yesterday, we ordered Mc'Donald's delivery meal for lunch after our AF. I met Dear in the evening and we had our dinner at Eighteen Chefs before our movie date. And tonight, I'll be having a BELATED farewell dinner with my colleagues, ex-colleagues and 'soon-to-be' ex-colleague at BREEKS!!
Dear commented about my 'gOOd' food week and simultaneously grabbed my lovehandles. I have always hated him for doing that i.e. grabbing my lovehandles coz it makes me feel super fat (i'm already one actually!) but he seems to be enjoying it. "My voluptuous baby," he would say cheekily. Yeah....many thanks to you dear that I am now being labelled as 'Ah Neh', '1st Bombshell' and 'SQC' at work for the 'ehem-ehems'! SQC you dontch know?? It stands for Singapore Quality Class! Mentang-mentang lah my organization dah ISO certified! Hehe.. =p And just last week, mumsy also passed a remark on 'that' lah....
So, it's about time that I really should need.......
a Maximizer
MINIMIZER!!
And dear, do you mind if I grow really scrawny, like really, reaalllllllyyyyyyyyyyy scrawny and breastless??
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
My cousin (as a matter of fact, he should be called "uncle" as he is my mum's cousin) got engaged last week. Congrats bro! So happy for both of you. :) Can't wait for your big day in about 1 1/2 years' time!
7 Nov will be the day that I'm nervously waiting for. It's the day where both of us will somehow know the outcome whether 'it' is approved or otherwise. I really 100x do hope that everything will go on smoothly. Insyaallah, if he gives the GREEN light, we will lay out the plans and work towards it. ILY honey!
Ouh, did I tell you that another colleague is leaving soon? I am soooo sedih!! :(
When is my turn?
Friday, October 9, 2009
Congrats to Norimah who has delivered her second baby, Adam Ansari, on September 11! :)
Well that's her baby! So what do you think? Do I look like I have the potential to be a loving mom? Hehehe...
Eid this year was just like any other years except that I avoided spending a bomb on the Raya clothes like what I did last year. :) More pictures are in FB.
Our Appointment Team had our Healthy Lifestyle outing last Friday. We had our lunch at Fig & Olive, Vivo City, and then we proceeded to have our walk along the Marang Trail. Did we even reach to our so-called "planned" destination? Hmmmm...The stairs that lead to Mount Faber / Henderson Waves looked so intimidating, macam Great Wall of China! So yeah....up to you to roughly guess ah. :))
Dearest will start his shift work tonight. Hopefully, he won't bump into Kak Pon or whatever else there might be during his duty. Hehehe...
And dear, even though we have been arguing frequently these days, I just would like you to know that I still sayaaaaaaaaang you.... :)
ILY. Mwah!
~Hugs&Kisses@ 10:44 AM :)
Here comes the long weekend... Thursday, September 17, 2009
I can foresee the busy long weekend that I am going to have. I will be on leave tomorrow - it's spring cleaning time! :(( Sunday's already Eid and I don't have much time left to procrastinate.
Met girlfriend, Nad, last Tuesday for Iftar. Dear tagged along as well. I feel glad that Nad has finally found someone who can love her for who she is. I hope that the bloke will be as matured as his age and last but not least, I really hope that "jodoh mereka berkekalan hingga ke jinjang pelamin dan ke akhir hayat..." :) *Hugs, Nad!*
Despite the happiness that I am feeling now due to the festive season which is just around the corner, I would like to express my condolences to someone who has just lost her loved one yesterday, after 2 months of battling for life. God loves him more and he is indeed a Heaven's child. Our thoughts and prayers are with him..
To end off this small entry, I would like to wish all Muslims who happen to chance upon my humble blog, an advance wonderful & blessed Eid-ul Fitri. Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir & Batin. :))
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I know I have not been blogging for the longest time. For a moment I kinda forgot that I actually own a blog. Heh! :)
Basically life has been pretty much the same. It was sometime in July that I went to Popeyes after work with 2 of my colleagues - Shila and Kak Yati. We chit-chatted over dinner and camwhored before we call it a day. :)
My birthday this year was kept simple. I took leave from work to celebrate it with Dear. We had lunch at Mackenzie Rex and spent some quality time together for the rest of the day. Ayang, I'm so in love with Choc Mud Cake!*Mwah!
And after 6 long months, my Buttsistaz finally gathered and met on one of the Fridays for Su's and my birthday celebration - dinner at Sakura, coffee and birthday donuts at Gloria Jean's Coffees. Seethal was super hyper. She kept laughing and laughing as she was trying to demonstrate to us how to blow the donuts since there were no candles. Guess who ended up eating the donut that she was holding and blowing? ME! A blessed donut indeed!
Dear had started his new job in MHA last month. Yes, you wouldn't have guessed it! He is one of those "Abang-abang Uniform" now! =p
Well congrats, honey! You have joined me in the Civil Service! Hurhur...
There is only one thing that I can say to him, now that he is working in a heavily Malay populated environment (needless to say, the heaps of Malay girls there too!). Take good care of yourself, darling and please BEHAVE!
Nur Kasih, a new Malay drama shown on TV3 (also shown on Sensasi), has kept my Fridays occupied recently . Put it simply, this is among the few Malay dramas that I am hooked to. Adam (starring Remy Ishak) is hot and so is Nur Amina (starring Tiz Zaqyah Razak). Oh Adam! *melts!*
Last Friday, the 4th Sept, was both Raymond's and Elena's last day with us. Raymond (our handsome Ah Weng) has left for another stat board just down the road from our office while Elena was transferred to MFA. Will miss them terribly. :(
*Raymond (above) and Elena (in pink top below)*
Our team held their farewell lunch on the 2nd and since Shila and I could not join for the lunch (we are fasting), we decided to have a farewell dinner for them on their last day instead. Alas,
someone was on MC on that unfateful day so we decided to postpone it to a later date. And heh, I was the someone lahhh. I was really sick uh! Hehehe....
But I wonder when the dinner will be held..? Hmmmm...
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
If you happen to chance upon me outside, please don't say "OMG Nur, what happened to your face? Why so different? Why so many pimples?"
Well, it's not that many though. Not yet a breakout but yes, there are one or two, no wait, three red dots on my face. I'm just anticipating for more to appear. Wait till end of July! Bah!
Stress (with WORK) = Breakout of pimples.
Just great eh?
The birthday is just 2 days away but I'm so not looking forward to it. Maybe work's partly mainly the reason but yeah, no mid year bonus for Civil Servants just make it even more suckier.
I have been having strange dreams and nightmares recently. This is so me lah. When I'm too stressed up and think too much (about work of all things!), I get nightmares. Stupid nightmares. There were many instances where I dreamt being chased by Pontianaks and there were cases I dreamt of my colleagues at work.
Come on lah people! Give me a break man! Still want to haunt me in my dreams?!
*pulls hair in frustration*
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
It's been more than a month since I last updated my blog. Yes, like finally, I managed to get this post up today. Well, when I say today, it means Wednesday, 8 Jul 09. I took quite some time to gather all the pics and info together. The reason for the lack in entries?
- Too caught up with work
- and Facebook!!
To start off, it was my cousin's wedding last May. Alhamdulillah, things went on smoothly and yeah, he is my FIRST paternal cousin to get married! I wonder who's next! Naw, definitely not me! =p
*The guestbook*
*The solemnisation ceremony*
*Fir and Uncle Saiful put up an accoustic performance during dinner*
*Birthday song for the May babies*
*The gorgeous dais at the bride's residence*
*Cousins*
*Me, my cousin and aunt*
*What a small world! Coincidentally, the lady in purple hijab is my aunt's (in green) SIL and she's working in the same organisation as me*
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*Peranakan Museum outing with the Appointment Team on one of the Fridays*
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*Dear's weekly soccer practice*
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*Fireworks display at the field in front of my house. It was Singapore Arts Festival closing ceremony for 2 consecutive days and how lucky, they chose my housing estate!*
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*Dear's bike project*
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*Shila and Molly's advanced birthday lunch treat*
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*Makan-makan with paternal family*
*Cousins*
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Still have a few more stuff to update but that can wait. Till then.... =)
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Do boyfriends who are ashamed of their girlfriends exist?
Friday, May 22, 2009
The IXUS babes - Ima, Shila and myself attended the Canon IXUS digicam training at Keppel Bay Towers yesterday. The stuff that were taught were mostly basics which we should know by now but there was quite a bit of new stuff which I had learnt during the training too (malas nak godeh-godeh digicam when I first got it so when the trainer taught us a few new functions and tips, we were kinda awed). And as usual, the IXUS babes were giggling, laughing and camwhoring throughout the lesson. =)
It was Jereton's last day at work today and our Appointment team had a farewell lunch for him at our usual restaurant - Swensen's @ Holland V.
Raymond still owe me a treat as I kena 'arrowed' from him to make Jereton's farewell card. Rabak seh!
*Jereton's Lamb Chop ....*
*My Seafood Pineapple Baked Rice*
*Raymond's Salmon Baked Rice*
*Shila's Chicken Baked Rice*
*Joyce presenting Jereton's farewell gift*
*The card which I made at the last minute for Jereton*
*The last shot for the day with Jereton*
We'll miss U to bits! =)
P/S: More pics on my Facebook
Thursday, May 21, 2009
I have this weird craving for chocolates eversince last week even though the moflow has ended. M&M's chocolates with peanuts is my favourite choice this time round. One thing that is so so bad is that I'm suffering from constipation now. (Urgh!) And if it happens when I'm at work, it would be worst! Let me tell you. At work, I prefer to use the squatting toilet cubicles as they provide the water sprays for "after business" cleaning purposes. So, if I happen to have constipation at work.........it means:
CONSTIPATION + SQUATTING TOILET = ???!!!!!!!! (Hah! Ambik kau!!)
Only those with strong legs can pass this test hor!
Bah!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Do you know I ALWAYS spend quite a long time to choose what to wear to work EVERY MORNING? Seriously, I did not know what to wear to work today. Friday is the only day of the week where we can 'dress down' to work and I thought of wearing some casual tops to match with my pair of jeans. Alas, I STILL could not decide and you should know how fickle-minded I am! =(
So what exactly did I wear to work today? It was a last minute decision I tell you.
My mum gave a small frown when I came out of my room, all dolled up and ready to go to work.
"Ape angin dgn kau nari?"
And I replied "Saje je nak pakai baju ni. Beli mahal-mahal takkan nak simpan dlm almari..."
Any ideas what I'm wearing today?
Give you some hints.
On every Friday, a blessed day of the week for Muslims, most Malay ladies would wear this outfit (but I don't think it applies to MOST Malay ladies now). I recalled when I was working back then in IRAS, most of the Malay staff, the ladies I mean, will don this outfit to work.
The last time I wore 'this' was around October last year.
Dah guess ke belom???
Pic below is another BIG and OBVIOUS clue, especially with my 10cm heels.
Hurry!! Free hugs to be won!
LOL!
(Hmmmm...Should I or should I not go watch him play soccer later?)
